Indian Gaming: I promised a review. It turns out that I need more work on that. My initial position that their sovereignty (I had to spell that 3 times before looking it up) accorded them freedom from state rule just like another state or Mexico. But, the indians signed a 1988 gaming act that still makes states reulatory. So, I gather the important parts of the act and reform my opinion.
Spanish AP was easy. A few of the conjugations were unknown to me, so I left them off. The test was great because it used five methods to know what we know: listening (long and short), short story interpretation, grammer conjugation (three types), a speaking portion, and an essay.
These short stories are nothing like the ones in english. I had to read the whole thing to answer the questions rather than looking for key words. Grammer is grammer and I never remember specifics afterwards. The speaking was mixed. I didn't complete a single idea that I started. I feel that I could talk for two minutes on the twenty second ones but I gear up instead of blurting an answer. I wonder which is better. Listening was better for me apparantly than the others. Being singled out, I didn't deal with opening doors or other noise.
The essay was my favorite part. They set up a topic I know by heart by now. It was 'the happiness of citizens is the responsibility of the individuals themselves or the government?' Needless to say, I batted out four paragraphs. Creation is the best feeling I know. Afterwards I wanted to shriek and run and cry for the beauty of what I had made. I have experienced adrenaline, crowd approval, the relief of water, and a host of other joyous feelings. Creation outclasses them all. I wonder if all those that said that they had a 'religious experience' felt what I did today could say that their relation with god was so ecstatic. 2:02 AM
Calculus AP was hard. I'll leave it at that.
I am still working on expanding Charity's identified patterns with popular admissions. My sister just read a portion of an article called 'help this girl.' I didn't listen to most. But what got through was horrible (in the real sense of the word). Some girl in India was living in a refuse-filled environment and tripped on some close to a railroad track. She had her arm sliced off. Now, I understood the horror of such an environment, (And, irony of ironies, I was then examining if my life is too 'pampered' for my own good.) but I wondered why. Some will claim that I have a natural reaction to save another being in distress. This is not so; I feel nothing for guys I see on the road with signs like 'I got nuthin except a pen to write this with. Why the hell did I buy a pen and not write a resume with it?'
But if I gave to her, what would be my underlying motive? I sensed that I didn't want that situation inflicted upon someone. But I remembered that she means as much to me as the 'starving kids in Ethiopia.' And further thought uncovered that it was not she I cared for but the situation. I so often invoke Martin King's words I should probably reexamine them. "Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere." I could probably write three pages in my thought process, but in the interests of economy I will not. I simply left undecided with a reminder that this has connections with eighty different issues.
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2 Comments:
wow...... such deep though came out of my silly little magazine. lol and i was the one who read it out loud so with out me u wouldnt have ever heard of that girl and without hearing of that girl this entry about ... that stuff... wouldnt have been there! so when it all plays out..... i am the reasomn you wrote that. wow.... so deep lol // at 10:39 PM by Cubancutie716
haha.. I read that article because my mom subscribed me to that magazine. Wow. I don't think I could've thought of that many things to write about one article.... // 6/5/2004 at 1:21 AM by WellDamntheMan
Concerning this site, That picture is Helen of Troy. And the green background lends a somber air. I was thinking of putting some music but most will not fit. Hmm, I guess I should find some classical music. Like Claire de Lune. Exept that I hate Claire de Lune. I wonder if I can find some liszt. I found some Lizst, my favorite. It is the second hungarian rhapsody, but is very sharp. But it doesn't go with the 'theme.' Maybe some elevator music?
In the beginning, I had thought to make this a journal but realize that I do not want a journal. If I don't care enough about what happens to me to report it, I doubt that faceless masses will. Instead, I will be using this as posting board for work. Like Charity. And I decided that I will not pursue the Emotion presentation regardless of what I said.
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